hmmbivalent

it is exactly 3:47 am in this side of the planet.

after a 10-min nap in the cab, i am back on track, picking off exactly where i left off. but this time armed with a mug of steaming Swiss Miss.

this week probably tells a lot on how 2010 will be:

(a) shelled out a significant amount of my savings to watch the coolest eyeliner-wearing Mormon in the planet because i think it's time i propose... on all fours.
(b) wrote my 1st review for a music blog a friend has created. biased and written like a true deranged, closet Francophilic fan girl.

yes, this year perhaps will be a proactive year for music.

and i am giddy, giddy, giddy, my heart races as fast as Ezra and his hair's* song:



they are separate entities, you see. Love Contra, btw.

Candy canes. These Western thingies remind me of a relative who used to live in this posh village, their neighbor was the Star for All Seasons, no less.

It was Christmas season, and it was my first time to meet them. I remember being enamored by their decorated living area - a huge tree, huge moving Santa Claus, gifts, a moving train. It was straight out of a mall display... or a Christmas episode of Dynasty.

The highlight of the day: the lola telling us to go ahead, get all the candy we want. I went straight to the tree and got myself a huge candy cane.



And yes, this Christmas-y reflections came in late.

*Whatever happened to Sneaker Pimps?

A vegan sandwich, haphazardly created before leaving for work, and Born Ruffian's Little Garcon.

Ah, can't help it if I sometimes shun talk and choose to be left alone with lunch, a decent pair of headphones, and great music.

Indulgence, hoo-haa.




Hmm, I think I'll christen my hypothetical band with this post's title.

in an ideal world, 4:00 am is the default wake up time. everything feels better when i'm up before dawn.

in reality however, it marks the beginning of slumber.

meanwhile,

It is very clear: You could be my Dan; I, your Shannan.

We'll live in a barn with our dogs, where there's a frazzled garden. There we shall pick some jerkins to make pickles with. And when we're not busy boiling vats of vinegar and sterilizing mason jars, we shall be busy with our art. Maybe fill shared notebooks with doodles and nonsense. Have our friends over and just chill (your catchphrase).

Steady.

Dear 2009,

Despite messing me up, I love you because of the musical discoveries you have ushered in and the personal realizations you have made me, well, realize.

I know now who and what's important and what must be done. I guess I do know too that though bridges can't be entirely burned down, there are people best left rotting in the past. They who have caused me much lacrymal fluid, sad playlists, and pack after pack of ciggies and bottles of beer.

And so I leave you with hypothetical tears in my eyes.

Not sure if I will miss you like 2008.

i hope this changes in the next year.

i am ready for whatever.




anyway, check out their other songs. they are fun. :)

i was meaning to post about a long list of material things i want to receive this season but i now know what i really, really want: ample time.

no coveted LEGO collectible or macbook pro or designer sneakers can bring as much as joy as ample time can.

and maybe, just maybe, rest.

hello again.

the obligatory who-i-am-and-why post.

this girl used to deposit stuff in the same platform, but had to leave it because life became too busy. fell for the convenience of microblogging but realized that 140 characters don't cut it.

so here's the fruition of that realization.

if you may ask, the title is a name of a playlist created when i was yes, ambivalent about something... i don't actually remember what it is. and if you may ask again, said playlist includes The Pains of Being Pure at Heart, Grammatics, The Album Leaf, Ra Ra Riot, The Temper Trap, and Metric.

creating THE soundtrack to my life - that's what keeps me up these days, among other things. oh and people, too.

will this be a music blog? not really. i'll just throw in stuff - rants, raves, inspiration, photos, cryptic messages to people i like and don't like.

the goal is to stay random. this is after all, hmmbivalent.

with that said, welcome.

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now let me figure out how i can make the title not appear in title case.

a quick hello while things are being set-up.

meanwhile, i leave you with a song i've been listening to the whole day today.



yes, home is wherever i'm with you.